Okay, I have to admit a few character flaws.  I am rampantly undisciplined and yet a perfectionist.  How on earth I cultivated those two characteristics at the same time is beyond me.  I am so much an all or nothing person.  Either I make a detailed list everyday and feel utter worthless if I don’t accomplish every single anal-retentive entry or I make no list and get hardly anything accomplished.

So when I am thinking of making a better schedule for myself, it means listing out everything in 15 minute increments and being totally unrealistic.  I have got to come up with a happy medium.  Some months back, Dave’s solution for me was to just make a list of things that needed to be accomplished daily, it didn’t matter when.  Somehow that didn’t work for me, it was far too lenient.  When I am facing a  deadline, I’m ruthlessly disciplined.   But give me the mundane tasks with no deadline and I’m horrible.

This afternoon while sitting at the Farmer’s Market I made two schedules entitling them Option A and Option B.    Option A, I admitted right at the top that it was my ambitious schedule, the one that lists everything in 15 minute increments and is super anal.  Option B, is probably more realistic, but it feels, how should I say this, ah, not living up to the perfectionist in me.

So I had a thought.  Instead of 15 minute increments, maybe I should divide my day into 3 sections like maybe morning routine, mid-day routine and afternoon routine.  Maybe that will take Dave’s original idea of just making a list to finish everyday and my need to be a little more deadline oriented in order to avoid the terrible undisciplined part of my character.  My need for oversight is kind of desperate.  If I don’t have accountability FORGET IT!  Dave isn’t a task master.  He’s not going to want to check a paper daily to make sure I’ve done all my tasks.  So I have to find the incentive within myself, argh!!  That’s the hard part.

As I have more thoughts on fixing this little dilemma, I will post again.